Working working working.....

For the past few days, I had been working like a cow.... mooo.. mooo........................... XD
There is a project about OT room (Operation Theatre in the hospital).......
My team and I are supposed to design the OT room for the hospital...
OMG... The works that assigned to me were freaking HARD....
They let me do the compiling of several reports....
The reports included the pricing, the equipments list, the piping.... alot la........
I was really scared that I made mistakes in the reports...
Come on.... Im still newbie and you gave me such difficult jobs to handle...
At least let me do the reports and not for the compiling....
I learned a lot of thing these few days.... Really alot...
Because of this project (its company P&C so cannot talk much about it), I got the chance to get closer to my collegues....
We joke, we talk, we discuss.... everything just like how I did my projects in my uni.....
Maybe most of my collegues are young.... (most of them just 24-27 years old, young right?)
The reports that I compiled got feed back today....
The feedbacks were positive....
I feel really happy with my working presentation and seniors start to give me more works to do...
Maybe you will think that why do I like to do works so much....
Let me tell you why....
Have you ever SKYPE in the office from 9am until 5.30pm?
Its freaking long hours sitting in front of the computer and do nothing...
Its really boring when there is nothing for me to do....
Then you cant facebook, you cant youtube, you cant read blogs.... (IT department blocks most of the website)
Luckily the IT din block my Japanese Manga and Hong Kong Comic in the office....
So when Im free... I stil can read my favourite manga and comic... XP
Before I got anything to do... I just feel like I got paid for SKYPE in the office....
Thats not a bad idea right?
At least online and in the office and can earn money....

There are still a lot of works need me to follow up tomorrow...
One of my teammates are not coming due to his convocation's rehearsal tomorrow....
THATS MEAN THAT I NEED TO DO DOUBLE WORKSSSSSSSSSSSS>>>> X(
Wish me luck that I manage to finish my works....
I OT for a few days for this project ad... I dont want OT again...

ps: Chub Gor.... It was your Birthday 2 days ago... Happy birthday to you... Wish you celebrate your birthday in that world with your friends... All the best there... Just sang our BEST songs for you just now...

Today...

Went to school this morning to talk to both course coordinators....
First one was Mechanical course coordinator and another one is Electrical course coordinator....
Who ask me study Mechatronics le so need to ask for advises from both coordinators....
I talked with mechanical coordinator, Helen Frost first and she told me that since I was in my last semester and unfortunately I fail one unit and I couldnt graduate so she allows me to sit for supplementary paper....
but she told me to talk to electrical coordinator too....
Electrical coordinator agreed to let me sit for supplementary paper too...
I feel relief....
There advantage and disadvantage with supplementary paper...
Its I either pass or fail which means that the max mark I can get is 50...
My heart think.... WHO CARES???
I just want to graduate and get out from this stupid engineering nightmare...
I might be rude... but this was what I think at that moment...
From fill in the form, paid for the supplementary paper, and summit the form, I think maybe this is how I should end my degree life...
Certain of obstacles and difficulties so that I can make good use of my engineering knowledge...
Then I can console people who has the same experience with me...
Then I can understand how they feel...
I feel like I can understand a lot of feeling now...

For example:
1. Panic attack before or during exams...
2. Know how people feel when people say that.. haiya, convo only mah... convo preparation so ma fan... who cares.... I dont even care about convo...
3. The feeling got console by people make you realize that got friends care about you...
4. Hate those top students said that they scare fail in exams...
5. Hate those people who say the exam so easy, why you fail in the exam...

Still have more but I dunno how to write it out...
I believe that there are a lot of people who understand what I talk above...
You might be one of those victims or you might be the one who criticize people....
But no matter who you are....
Try to think before you talk....
Your words might affect a person feeling....
Not everyone are like 'you' who has high IQ and score well in the exams....
Try to care about others feeling...
Dont be so arrogant and hurt others ya....

You might be not agree with my opinions and aggressive but its my blog.... FREE TO TALK... XD
Hope everyone is happy and healthy there...
Good night...

Failure... Loser..... WTH

Results just released......
I failed one.... the same one that I failed before....
Once again... I fail... and disappointed those who put hope on me...
But in the positive way... I just fail one not all...
Lucky me geh... (trying to console myself... =)

Nightmare can be ended here or just began...
I might have a good sleep after tonight which is nightmare ended...
I might need to study for that subject for another sem which is nightmare begin...
That subject is called Microprocessor.....
Its all about programming programming....
Maybe Im suck in programming so I fail again....

Im going to school tomorrow to ask whether I can sit for august paper or do I need to retake the whole subject...
If I need to retake the whole subject mean that.... damn... it..... still need to be a student... for one more sem....
but good also... at least not jobless... =]

well... All the best to you all.... =]

乌鸦

是否真的是天下乌鸦都是一般的黑呢?
刚刚出去晒衣服的时候, 看见了一群乌鸦在天上飞...
心里想想...
好像在那里听过其实乌鸦本来是白色的...
不知道为什么后来会变成黑色...
如果一群乌鸦里面有一只乌鸦是白色的....
你心里会想什么呢?
是变种的吗?
是乌鸦吗？
是异型吗?
乌鸦被象征为会带来不好和不祥....
你相信吗?
如果我说我信的话, 那就是说我每一天都是非常的衰咯...
反而我会让我想起乌鸦是很孝顺的...

乌鸦乌鸦... ‘啊啊啊.....’

Lately....

Long long time never update into my blog ad...
Kinda miss you and would like to update you today....
It has been two weeks after my exams.....
Everyday is like nightmare for me....
My life is miserable and I had nightmare almost everyday....
Dreamed about I failed in my exams la.... Have to study again la... Disappointed people who put hope on me la... Disappointed with myself too....
The exams this sem were the most miserable exams for me...
I knew that its my last sem and I needed to make sure that I can graduate on time....
In order to accomplish that goal, I started my studies very very very early...
I never study so early...
I gone through all the lecture notes, make my own notes, make sure I know how to do past year papers....
But who knows.... 人算不如天算...
I think the lecturers want to see me again next sem or next year....
They changed the stupid exam format and came out with the questions that I couldnt do at all (those minor things in the lab which normally we wont care about)...
When I read the questions, I was like..... WHAT THE FUCK....
The questions are like they know me but I din know about them... Not a single questions.....
My tears were rolling in my eyes...
My brain was numb...
My hands were cold and shaking...
I tried to calm myself...
Focus and think...
Drink water to fresh my mind...
Sweets for me not to be panic attack...
I almost finished every questions in the exams...

After the exams, everyone looks very happy...
I think Im the only one who feel so miserable...
My housemates had the 'pre-graduation ceremony' which was held for those people who want to try the feel of graduation and wear those graduation suit last week...
They invited me to go with them... I went with them... They were very happy but I din feel excited at all... maybe Im thinking of whether I can graduate or not...
Everyone looks very happy after last sem...
Maybe they have confident with themself that they will grad on time....
Hrmmm... Who knows...
I dunno why I din feel any better when everyone told me ' you will be fine...'
Maybe Im a stupid and stubborn rabbit.... haha... XD

Nowadays, couldnt really sleep...
Almost everyday lying on the bed... until 2am... 3am.... 4am...
I do not think of anything but just dunno why cant sleep...

Well.... I hope that everything will be fine... everything can go according to my plan...
Please... I just need a pass... I do not want to study anymore...
Hope that everyone is happy, healthy and all the best in everything...

late at the night.... =.=

Wuhoo... Look like I din update this blog for a couple of weeks ad...
I always want to update the blog but I could not think of anything to write lately...
My mind was blank...
Maybe too many labs and mid sem tests that I needed to cover last few weeks...
Its around 3am now...
Slept for awhile but woke up again...
Its actually pretty hard for me to be insomnia but dunno why could not sleep tonight...
A lot of things ran into my mind once I woke up....
A lot of conversations that I had with my friends this couple of weeks...
Some are sad, some are happy and some are crappy...
I still remember that my male friend told me that something that I think guys and gals are the same...

He: enggui, Im quite fan lately...
Me: what you fan so much lately?
He: I think Im a gal instead of a guy le...
Me: haha.... why do you think so??? what make you think that you are a gal??
He: cause lately I din really talk much... feel depress... cant do much thing... I din talk to anyone for 1-2 days le...
Me: hrmm... sound like something is troubling you wor....
He: actually... nothing is troubling me but I just din want to talk with anyone...
Me: sometime, its pretty normal that a guy din talk much in one or two days geh.... maybe guys need to rest also... or you can think that gals will have period every month and guys will have emo days every month too...
He: hrmm... yalu... why like that de ahh....
Me: cause you din tell people about your problem.. cause you close yourself up... cause you din go out and mix with other friends.. try to be more cheerful and not be pessimistic.. you can be happier if you tell someone that you trust about your problems... I dunno what can I help you but at least I will listen to you....
He: maybe you are right... there are a couple of days every month that guy din talk much...
Me: laugh la... We still have some labs to rush... lets haha together so that we can finish our labs...

End up.. we din do much things but went for lunch together and ignore the lab... XD
some people say that gals are very hard to understand and can change their mind and emotions like weather...
for me... guys and gals are the same.... I have some male friends that they change their minds like weather too.. first few minutes can be very happy but after a few minutes will be very sad....

hrmmm.... the night is so quiet and so cold...
Listen to Norah Jones... quite nice... quite relax...
but still.... I couldnt sleep...
What should I do??
Dont feel like studying, reading or play game...
Maybe listen to songs and feel the air flowing in my room...
Have you ever tried to ly on the bed or sit on your chair and close your eyes and listen to songs??
Of course not those sad songs...
Those songs will only make the night even worst....
Try to choose some songs that are slow, good rhythm and relax songs...
I personally like Norah Jones...
I dont really listen to what she sings but I like the the way she sings and the music she plays...

hualala.... cold cold and late ad....
Time to go back to roll in my bed cause its really really really cold now... haha....
Wish those people who just graduated manage to get a job soon....
Wish those people who are having final exam will pass with flying colours....
Wish everyone is healthy and happy....

Easter Break.... =]

I just finished my wonderful Easter Break....
I started my first day of my Easter holidays last last Thursday (1th April 2010)...
I think its the most craziest day I ever have in my life....
My housemates and I installed "The Lord of the Ring" strategic game in my com and their coms...
We start to play the LAN game from 10pm that day until the next day around 6am...
I think I never played game until so late after something bad happened to me...
I was a hardcore gamer last time when I was primary-secondary school and I quit it....
I did something terrible to a friend that care me very much...
It really make me felt bad about that....
But since its Easter Break so I just accompanied my housemates to play a few rounds of game... =]
Of course I wont abundant rainbow cause of playing game geh...

I went to Shan Shan's place for gathering the next day (2nd April 2010)...
My housemates and I ran to her house cause we were late ad...
The weather that day was quite cold and windy so its quite nice to run actually....
Shan Shan prepared some food for us and those food were very delicious...
We played with her dog too...

This was the dog that we played with... Its cute right??? We even took him out for a walk before my housemates and I came back home... =]

On Saturday (3th April), my housemates and I went for Jeon's open house...
We reached boxhill station at around 3.30pm and we walked around there..
Jeon's house is near to boxhill station...
Boxhill is famous with 'Portuguese Egg Tart'...
I bought 4 and I finished all when I was on the way to Jeon' house... XD
At first, I wanted to buy for Jeon but who knows the egg tarts were too delicious ad...
Hence, I finished all the egg tarts before I reached his home at around 4.30pm...
Below is a funny conversation between me and Jeon...

Jeon: hello hello!!!!
me: hello hello!!!! This is for you.... (hand the egg tart packet to Jeon)
Jeon: hey, thanks man... no need to be so 'ke qi' la...
me: eh... you misunderstand ad.. this one is for you to help me to throw...
Jeon: what the.... you really a f**cker!!! haha.... but why you guys reach you early?
I told you the open house had changed to 6pm...
me: huh??? how come?? when?? really???
Jeon: What la you... I told you in msn yesterday....
me: Oh no......................................................... XD

then my housemates looked at me and I looked at my housemates... their eyes were sharp as if they want to kill me... haha....
We youtube and singk while we were waiting for the the people to reach Jeon's house...
We had nuggets, chicken wings, snacks, bobochacha, pizza and etc...
We played card games like bridge, 'dai di' and etc...
We even played mahjong...
We stayed there until the 1am...
What a tiring saturday I had...

Sunday was the day I online dating with rainbow... haha...
It was pretty fun cause we chat a lot of things...
We even ate together... =]

Monday, Tuesday and wednesday went to school to do my lab....
Nothing special...
Just headache with the programming codes....
Little mistake and cause my codes couldnt work at all...

On thursday, I went to my friend's house for another gathering...
This was quite fun too cause got a lot of FOOD too...
Besides, I had the chance to try nintendo wii...
I always want to try it and I like it so much after I tried...
We played Mario Cart, Mario Board Games, Boxing, Golf, Tennis, Bowling and etc...
The gathering ended at 5.30am the next day (Friday).... XD

On Friday, I met with my lui lui...
She came back here for her graduation...
I talked to her about her life in malaysia and my life this few months...
We talked to each other until 4 something in the afternoon...
Each of us are happy with our own relationship... =]

On Saturday, I had online dating with rainbow again...
This time even more geng cause we had online video karaoke...
We took turn to sing...
She sang song the songs and let me guess....
I figured out that she listened to a lot of english songs....
while on the other hand, I din really know a lot of english song...
We sang until 3am... haha.. =]
It was very very very fun to have this kind of activity to improve our relationship...

Finally, the last day of my easter break....
I told myself that I cannot be lost again after sunday...
I must study hard hard and jia you so that I can graduate on time... XD

Here is my easter break which is one of my enjoyable and happiest easter break...
Hope that everyone is jia you there and all the best in everything... =]