Today...

Went to school this morning to talk to both course coordinators....
First one was Mechanical course coordinator and another one is Electrical course coordinator....
Who ask me study Mechatronics le so need to ask for advises from both coordinators....
I talked with mechanical coordinator, Helen Frost first and she told me that since I was in my last semester and unfortunately I fail one unit and I couldnt graduate so she allows me to sit for supplementary paper....
but she told me to talk to electrical coordinator too....
Electrical coordinator agreed to let me sit for supplementary paper too...
I feel relief....
There advantage and disadvantage with supplementary paper...
Its I either pass or fail which means that the max mark I can get is 50...
My heart think.... WHO CARES???
I just want to graduate and get out from this stupid engineering nightmare...
I might be rude... but this was what I think at that moment...
From fill in the form, paid for the supplementary paper, and summit the form, I think maybe this is how I should end my degree life...
Certain of obstacles and difficulties so that I can make good use of my engineering knowledge...
Then I can console people who has the same experience with me...
Then I can understand how they feel...
I feel like I can understand a lot of feeling now...

For example:
1. Panic attack before or during exams...
2. Know how people feel when people say that.. haiya, convo only mah... convo preparation so ma fan... who cares.... I dont even care about convo...
3. The feeling got console by people make you realize that got friends care about you...
4. Hate those top students said that they scare fail in exams...
5. Hate those people who say the exam so easy, why you fail in the exam...

Still have more but I dunno how to write it out...
I believe that there are a lot of people who understand what I talk above...
You might be one of those victims or you might be the one who criticize people....
But no matter who you are....
Try to think before you talk....
Your words might affect a person feeling....
Not everyone are like 'you' who has high IQ and score well in the exams....
Try to care about others feeling...
Dont be so arrogant and hurt others ya....

You might be not agree with my opinions and aggressive but its my blog.... FREE TO TALK... XD
Hope everyone is happy and healthy there...
Good night...

Failure... Loser..... WTH

Results just released......
I failed one.... the same one that I failed before....
Once again... I fail... and disappointed those who put hope on me...
But in the positive way... I just fail one not all...
Lucky me geh... (trying to console myself... =)

Nightmare can be ended here or just began...
I might have a good sleep after tonight which is nightmare ended...
I might need to study for that subject for another sem which is nightmare begin...
That subject is called Microprocessor.....
Its all about programming programming....
Maybe Im suck in programming so I fail again....

Im going to school tomorrow to ask whether I can sit for august paper or do I need to retake the whole subject...
If I need to retake the whole subject mean that.... damn... it..... still need to be a student... for one more sem....
but good also... at least not jobless... =]

well... All the best to you all.... =]

乌鸦

是否真的是天下乌鸦都是一般的黑呢?
刚刚出去晒衣服的时候, 看见了一群乌鸦在天上飞...
心里想想...
好像在那里听过其实乌鸦本来是白色的...
不知道为什么后来会变成黑色...
如果一群乌鸦里面有一只乌鸦是白色的....
你心里会想什么呢?
是变种的吗?
是乌鸦吗？
是异型吗?
乌鸦被象征为会带来不好和不祥....
你相信吗?
如果我说我信的话, 那就是说我每一天都是非常的衰咯...
反而我会让我想起乌鸦是很孝顺的...

乌鸦乌鸦... ‘啊啊啊.....’

Lately....

Long long time never update into my blog ad...
Kinda miss you and would like to update you today....
It has been two weeks after my exams.....
Everyday is like nightmare for me....
My life is miserable and I had nightmare almost everyday....
Dreamed about I failed in my exams la.... Have to study again la... Disappointed people who put hope on me la... Disappointed with myself too....
The exams this sem were the most miserable exams for me...
I knew that its my last sem and I needed to make sure that I can graduate on time....
In order to accomplish that goal, I started my studies very very very early...
I never study so early...
I gone through all the lecture notes, make my own notes, make sure I know how to do past year papers....
But who knows.... 人算不如天算...
I think the lecturers want to see me again next sem or next year....
They changed the stupid exam format and came out with the questions that I couldnt do at all (those minor things in the lab which normally we wont care about)...
When I read the questions, I was like..... WHAT THE FUCK....
The questions are like they know me but I din know about them... Not a single questions.....
My tears were rolling in my eyes...
My brain was numb...
My hands were cold and shaking...
I tried to calm myself...
Focus and think...
Drink water to fresh my mind...
Sweets for me not to be panic attack...
I almost finished every questions in the exams...

After the exams, everyone looks very happy...
I think Im the only one who feel so miserable...
My housemates had the 'pre-graduation ceremony' which was held for those people who want to try the feel of graduation and wear those graduation suit last week...
They invited me to go with them... I went with them... They were very happy but I din feel excited at all... maybe Im thinking of whether I can graduate or not...
Everyone looks very happy after last sem...
Maybe they have confident with themself that they will grad on time....
Hrmmm... Who knows...
I dunno why I din feel any better when everyone told me ' you will be fine...'
Maybe Im a stupid and stubborn rabbit.... haha... XD

Nowadays, couldnt really sleep...
Almost everyday lying on the bed... until 2am... 3am.... 4am...
I do not think of anything but just dunno why cant sleep...

Well.... I hope that everything will be fine... everything can go according to my plan...
Please... I just need a pass... I do not want to study anymore...
Hope that everyone is happy, healthy and all the best in everything...